I am still His Child

Not too long ago, a friend of mine accused me of not only having little faith, but worst of all, still doubting God. 

To be honest, I never thought I was... I always thought I was just being cautious... esp after how a friend of mine was decieved. It all started when he was persistent about something, to a point he actually made a deal with God - he would only answer his call to ministry after God granted his desire. That was when things went downhill... God really doesn't work that way... I of all person should know since I made the same deal once... and it took me 10 years later to see my prayers being answered! 

Anyway... so when he did that, it opened himself up to what I can only describe as the evil one manipulating the situation for his benefit. That was almost 4++ years ago and my friend, I believe he has learnt his lesson and have also answered his call and joined the ministry full time. 

As for me.. well, recently something in my life sorta started coming together and it has been an amazing yet infuriating experience. It is nice how God is slowly revealing certain things and how some things I have been praying for is coming together... yet, I never thought of the long term implications and how certain areas in my life will have to change. Giving up some of the things that are required wasn't as difficult as I thought... it came naturally, yet when I think I am losing ground, God and I do this whole pull-tug-yank thing... and I of course end up losing... hahaha... 

Anyway... why I am saying this and so cryptically... simply because... in due time, I will reveal it all... esp how God is changing and answering my prayers. I don't want to say too much cos I am afraid of jinxing the situation esp when it is related to prochecies in my life...

But I do feel propelled to write about this is because sometime back I wrote about how I have messed up in my past but God in His infinite grace found me worthy enough to give a second chance... I guess me saying how He is answering my prayers is another declaration of that... sometimes we have already acknowledge that He has saved us, but there is still a bit of fear in us that sometimes to punish us He won't listen or answer our prayers... but that is not part of the deal. The minute He saves us and we acknowledge His reign in our lives, we are His children - no 2 ways about it... and He will do what is in His power to give us the best. 

Thank God I am His child...

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