Are you cut out for this?

Today I saw my collegue cried. And it wasn't a little boo hoo. But it was a deep sadness and brokeness boo hoo. You can also say it was a defeatus cry.

I heard her speaking on the phone - the office isn't a small place and when it is silent, many conversations can't be hidden without severe attempts. So I suspected. Then she had a conversation with my boss, and shortly after that, she went missing.

Now for someone who was clearly rushing to meet a deadline, you try ways and means not to stay away from the table because EVERY SECOND COUNTS! So I found her... frustrated, defeated, lost and beaten talking to her fiancee.

I never thought she would reach this point. I thought she was above it. Turns out she wasn't. And I found myself asking myself, are you above it?

I still don't know if I am cut out for this. I am seriously considering trying to further myself in this feild, but also not forsaking my master plan. But I am not sure. I know what I want, but still unsure if what I want is aligned with what God has in mind for me.