No... I still haven't finished the long intended post. In fact the more I read what I wrote the more I think I need to rewrite it. Maybe I will after this post first. I just found out a guy I have a crush on is attached. I didn't know. And I don't even know since when he became attached.
It is a rather funny thing is I have known him online longer than in person and I have chatted with him online more often than in in person. And at the end of the day, I prefer the 'person' I chat with rather than the person I speak to.
Funny huh?
So after toying and thinking about this for a while, I thot I should confront someone more matured - a friend who recently had a baby boy; one can't get more matured than that, and besides, she knows him - and find out why the odd feelings.
She had no answers... but as the conversation evolved, i found out that the guy was attached. This I didn't know. Guess I didn't know him as well as I thought.
So... what now? I am back to square one. But my friend did say something - that at least I know now I am capable of feeling for someone. Even though I am romantically dysfunctional but at least I am not afraid to like someone.
OK... makes a lot of sense. But don't think it is of use to me right now that I am nursing a semi-broken heart. (huh?)
And all this about me not being afraid to like someone... I think it is subjective. And frankly I don't want to go into it.
The bottom line is... I aint a happy camper right now. And I wish emotions and crushes were a lot more easier as one grows up.
Guess not.
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(28 April 2007)
Had time to think about this.. and also after the whole fascinate vs. like posting... this is definately a fascination that will amount to nothing.
A friend said it in the most eloquent manner...
"I may find a bug fascinating, but by no means I like it" hahaha... so this ladies and gentlemen is a bug...
hahaha...
^__^
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