What was I thinking!?

Well... this time tomorrow i will be on my way to Dubai and then to Manchester. My bags are finally packed... well almost. I have a few items in KL to shove into the bag. I am overweight... I mean the bags (my weight is a lost cause) and I have given up trying to recude it. No matter what I do, it is always +/- 33kg. Well at least it was better then the 42 kg I initially had!!

Ppl are praying for me and are wishing me all the best and stuff. Some have also given me small love gifts. As I have said before... and I will say it again - God is AMAZINGLY good and I am humbled. Till this moment I feel I am the wrong person for this. Many ppl think that this is some high flying mission work... I don't know what it is. And the rest keep asking me what am I doing and why. Is it me discovering myself? Well in a way yeah. Is it me running away from things for a while? Yes too.. Is it me challenging myself to serve God? Well yes but I can serve God anywhere! Is it me stepping out of my comfort zone? Most definately. So I guess it is a mesh of many things.

*YAWN* (it is now 3.48am, 11 Jan 06)

Another thing... I feel really shitty I could not meet up with many of my friends. And a few ppl I said we will meet up soon before I go. I feel like such a cow. The ones I could not meet I tried calling. But since I have changed phones and lost many numbers, some of their numbers are not convinient at that moment I want to call. Ok... bad excuse! Anyway... I will miss my friends... and I think I will miss the nutters. Indz called earlier (very much earlier) and I almost cried during the conversation. I didn't even cry when the Palans prayed for me. How strange. Anyway, I have no doubt Our Lord will watch over them.

And guess what!? Dad wants a monthly update from me like a newsletter and he will circulate it around to those who are praying for me or have supported me in cash / kinds / prayers. I was close to telling him to just get it from the blog. Then I recalled at the stuff I said in here... and changed my mind. I only hope the PC is convinient for me. Even U. Dickie suggested it as well. Great minds think alike... I hope I have a bit of the genes.

Anyway... I should be getting some sleep... even if it is only for 2 odd hours. Pray for me! Pray God will give me wisdom, I will adapt to the weather and that I will lose weight and come home. Also that my overweight luggage will not cause any problems tomorrow!

Thanks to everyone for your support, friendship, encouragement, prayers, love gifts and advice.