I recently met up with 2 friends... One an old friend and the other a good friend.
Lets start with the old friend. We have known each other since I was like 9. I have never really dedicated much time and space to her in my blog. Funny… cos we were extremely close. Anyway… she was quite a rebel when we were very much younger. And as I told her, many people were not keen on us being friends. That she was bad influence. And when trouble started brewing in her parent’s marriage, she got even more rebellious and we began to drift apart.
But even so, despite I was never really there for her, she still felt I was a really good friend and constantly wishes me all the best.
As I sat there and listened to how her life now evolved around her mom’s happiness, I thought it was strange. The young woman that everyone thought was bad influence to me, is now the most amazing daughter and friend. She said those who have a lot of shit going on are the ones that turn out alright in the end. I think she is right. Hahaha… I think God is using her and she just doesn’t know it.
She still has so much love for me, and sometimes when I meet up with her I feel like a rotten friend. And I always wish that my friendship could have made her life different. But then again, everything works out for a reason.
All things said and done… I thank God that He preserved this friendship to remind me how we have grown and turned out.
Ok… Good friend.
I shared with her the previous blog and shared with her stories of “some of the bad apples” I had met along the way. And I tried in the most delicate and tactful manner possible to breach the subject of boundaries. She shared that she had broken it with her boyfriends but also said the key is to know you had done that and to never to do. But she did say it is harder now because you know what is missing.
OK… I can’t really identify with that cos when I crossed my boundaries, it was so bad I was planning my grocery list in my mind. Hahaha… If he ever knew about this, he would be so hurt! I am sometimes so tempted to tell him he is not God’s greatest gift. Anyway… the one thing is true, after you have done it and know you did something wrong, you make a conscious effort not to repeat that mistake. Which is exceptionally true!
The one thing I am glad is I am not alone. I am not alone in struggling and trying to keep my fingers and toes to myself. And that every relationship is bound to be confronted with the ultimate test – to stay within the boundaries. And the question is how doe we resist? How do you resist temptation to “enjoy someone so enjoyable” hahaha…
Anyway… like I said – bottomline is I am not alone. And that is good enough for me now.
When I get someone, I shall account on how I overcame these issues. J
Cont to chill and fill!
Lets start with the old friend. We have known each other since I was like 9. I have never really dedicated much time and space to her in my blog. Funny… cos we were extremely close. Anyway… she was quite a rebel when we were very much younger. And as I told her, many people were not keen on us being friends. That she was bad influence. And when trouble started brewing in her parent’s marriage, she got even more rebellious and we began to drift apart.
But even so, despite I was never really there for her, she still felt I was a really good friend and constantly wishes me all the best.
As I sat there and listened to how her life now evolved around her mom’s happiness, I thought it was strange. The young woman that everyone thought was bad influence to me, is now the most amazing daughter and friend. She said those who have a lot of shit going on are the ones that turn out alright in the end. I think she is right. Hahaha… I think God is using her and she just doesn’t know it.
She still has so much love for me, and sometimes when I meet up with her I feel like a rotten friend. And I always wish that my friendship could have made her life different. But then again, everything works out for a reason.
All things said and done… I thank God that He preserved this friendship to remind me how we have grown and turned out.
Ok… Good friend.
I shared with her the previous blog and shared with her stories of “some of the bad apples” I had met along the way. And I tried in the most delicate and tactful manner possible to breach the subject of boundaries. She shared that she had broken it with her boyfriends but also said the key is to know you had done that and to never to do. But she did say it is harder now because you know what is missing.
OK… I can’t really identify with that cos when I crossed my boundaries, it was so bad I was planning my grocery list in my mind. Hahaha… If he ever knew about this, he would be so hurt! I am sometimes so tempted to tell him he is not God’s greatest gift. Anyway… the one thing is true, after you have done it and know you did something wrong, you make a conscious effort not to repeat that mistake. Which is exceptionally true!
The one thing I am glad is I am not alone. I am not alone in struggling and trying to keep my fingers and toes to myself. And that every relationship is bound to be confronted with the ultimate test – to stay within the boundaries. And the question is how doe we resist? How do you resist temptation to “enjoy someone so enjoyable” hahaha…
Anyway… like I said – bottomline is I am not alone. And that is good enough for me now.
When I get someone, I shall account on how I overcame these issues. J
Cont to chill and fill!
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